What the heck is this thing stucking in my chest?????

I look to the left

I look to the right

I can feel it

Something is not right

I keep ignore it

Don’t know what to fix

the feeling is bubbling

to erupt from my chest

I keep thinking

What the feeling is all about

But I get nothing

To let it all out

It suffocating me

So much that its hurt

But how to find it

When you don’t know what it is

..douche bag..

"you can be a douche bag sometimes."

Tell me. What will you feel when someone tell you that? Angry? annoyed? sad? lost your pride? Well, for me, i feel all of those.

I know that sometimes i will talk nonsense. But, do you think i want to be like that? To me, creating words and sentences, providing ideas through critical thinking in a mere second and providing something relevant are something that is hard to do. When you manage to do it, it is rude for someone to call you a douche bag. For example, a girl work hard on her test but still fail and someone suddenly said that she is an idiot. THAT we can say common courtesy is not common anymore.

Someone out there please i beg you, please, if you want to call someone a douche bag, give your brain a little wash if that guy or girl deserves the tittle. It is okay to call them that if they are really arrogant and take pride on the nonsense that they tell you. However, if that person looked like someone who is struggle for suitable words to deliver to you, then, don't be a douche bag by calling then a douche bag.

sincerely,
from someone that had been called a douche bag

..Get a New blog for The Adventure..

Peace be upon you..
i have mixed up my post lately. It is quit confusing. I'll make another blog for the adventure.. :D

..First idea for the Runaway..

Peace be upon You..

As i typed my previous post, i felt very eager on how to begin my new route for the Runaway. For a short period, here i am again declaring the idea.

Wattpad

Hehehe! I actually already post my unfinished novel in the bombastic application. Surprise! Well, only a person know about it. And i bet that person will be the one who read this post first. Doesn't matter. Let's talk about the work. That first masterpiece entitled "Found Love In the Rain". But sadly, it is unfinished. Why i don't finished it? Come on People! if i don't have a writer's block, i would have finish it before i post this. I lost the purpose of the story.. SobSob

However, no time to be sad. I have something to cure it! Tadaaaaaa

I'm going to write a short story to cure my writer's block!!

Well, not a happy news but that is not the only idea i've got! As my brain goes up and down the room, i remembered something that i wrote with my friends from the past. It is actually a story that was written in one short paragraph. I don't know why my lecturer want us to wrote it in one paragraph and even worst, she never check it. Doesn't matter. The thing is, the story is quite good. I want to expend it. It will make one hell of a short story. :D

p/s: wanna give you guys a clue. This is half of the paragraph that we wrote.. 

     I remember my memorable experience which leads to an embarrassment yet sweet moment. The moment happened in my home during semester break a few months ago.  On that day, I sat alone in my room with the window opened wide allowed the strong wind came in. I blankly stared at my neighbour’s house. Back then, I had a crush on the neighbour’s son, Lukman who was my senior from my previous school. I don’t know why but his friends always call him Leo even now. Back to the story, Lukman then went out with his motorcycle’s key and helmet. My heart began to beat faster and unconsciously began took out a piece of paper. Then, my hand began to scribble a heart shape with the words “Leo and me”. As I lifted my hand from the paper, a strong wind blows my precious paper away. It flew and circled in the air and landed next to the drain near him.  I began to feel nervous and slowly climbed out of my window to get the paper. I relieved that he did not realized about my action because of the bushes between our houses. As my hand slowly started to reach the paper, it... (What happen next? stay tuned)

     

..Lets Change!..

Peace be upon You.. 

well, i'm officially changing my blog's title to a little more adventurous!! know why? 

I desperate for some CHANGE

There you go! loud and red. I need some change. My lecturer once said to me (my class i mean), he found out that teenagers, beginning from his year until now are actually have similarities which is easily clueless and always searching for purpose in life. To make it simple, have you ever feel disturbed when you do not have anything to do in your life? When you have finished your homework or assignment, a question suddenly popped up in your mind.

What am i doing here? 

You will feel really empty because you do not feel that you live to do assignment or listen to music or wash dishes. 

To tell you the truth, i always feel that way. As i finished reading my book, i will ask myself questions such as 'am i doing the right thing?'or 'what to do after this?' or 'am i missing something?'. I will feel so empty if i don't do something quickly. 

Asking those questions make me realize something. 

Human are curious

yup, that's right. Statement of the year! Human is not a mysterious creature anymore because i lived for 18 years as one. I know practically everything about human. Nah Kidding! a lot i don't know about human. But, human being a curious creature is something that everyone know. Why not? everyone want to learn because they are curious. 

So, what about human being curious has anything to do with me want to change? There is another thing about human that we must know. If they don't have determination, they are doom. Just like me. 

I'm now currently sitting in a room that fill with everything comfortable and there, in my hand, is a smart phone that allow access to wattpad.com and fanfiction.com. Trust me, i can live a month without television and laptop as long as i have my smart phone with me. With internet access of course. 

This is what make me want to change. I use a lot of my time reading novels and fan fiction from my smart phone until I forget about other things that i can do. I want to have an adventurous life! reading novels day and night is not my dream of an adventure. That is why i need a change. 

This blog is actually helping because i usually post my newest project in this blog and i want it to record my adventure from the beginning until the end. 

Beginning until the End

Hope can make this successful. 

  

 

..Take control = Patience + Rational..

My father once said to me that strong emotions like sad, jealousy, happy and depress are actually come from the soul. If you cannot control the soul by being patient, you will lost all the rational and do something stupid.  

For example, have you done anything that you now think it was a stupid act? Does it influenced by strong emotions?

well, i do.  

there was once, i had a crush on a guy. Overwhelmed by anticipation, i confessed. The guy ignored me and i let myself washed the pillow with my tears after back from school. Now, i think back, i find out that my act of confessing the crush and crying till my eyes out was kindda stupid. Those were things that i done because i was unable to control my emotion.  

Now, i learn my lesson. When you are filled with emotion, just be patient and try to think rational so that you will not regret the decision you make. 

..I Want..

Difficult.

That is the adjective that keep popping in my my head whenever i tried to do my works. 

Depression.

This is what my emotion lead me to right now. Who knows undone things can ruined someone's day so much.

Hardwork.

Trying to be someone who has this talent. Trying and trying and trying...

Lazy.

Seem like only this word exist right now. How to make it disappeared?

Determination.

Ahh, i get it. 

#somethingthatiwrotetogetinspiration. :D

..Time to Get Serious..

Peace be upon you..

After weeks that full of 'YAY', 'YES' and 'YEAH!!', i need to get serious. On what? of course on my academic. As all of my lecturers said "this sem gonna be tough." Well, folks. They are not kidding. You gonna have a heart attack after hearing the explanation on all of the assessments. Although now i have one week of Christmas holiday, it doesn't mean i can use it to sleep, online, TV and eat because there are lots of homework provided by the lecturers for me. Want to see the list? go on..

1) CTU-important of knowledge in islamic POV
            team 1- aku, ani, amira

2)L&S- The Effective ways to begin and end a speech
            team 3- Aku, Athira, Anis, Hanan
         - Demonstrative Speech outline

3)Literature- Read all
                - Short Stories (aku, Ani, Nik)

4)Drama- Story Telling

That's all. Look easy but watch out! nothing easy when it comes to assignment. I'll do my best. Lets forget about Comic Fiesta on this long holiday..

Adios!!

..Comic Fiesta 2012 Day 2..

Peace Be Upon You..

And now, as you can guess (if you cant, dont be dissapointed), the moment of truth, i will tell you want happen to me during the second day of comic fiesta 2012..

Well, during the previous post, i said that i would wear my costume during the second day. Ladies and gent, i'm not kidding. I wore my costume all the way to KLCC Convention Center. From UiTM Shah Alam till there. Of course people cant stop looking at us, the abnormal but, at the end of the day, we dont care anymore.

Lets begin the journey. As we woke up from from restless slumber, it was already 6:30. Me and Sammy have a girl's night at Ada-chin's room. The block was almost empty. Who want to sleep alone? Then, i traveled back to my room. After done some fundamental cleaning and wore my costume, i walked to Sammy room. Quit far i might add. Why must i go to her room anyway? simple. I dont know how to wear contact.

As i went into her room, Sammy already wore her costume and currently adjusting her make-up. She taught me how to wear the contact but failed as i cant opened up my eyes when someone want to put their finger on it. Sammy blamed me and said "terkedip-kedip, terkedip-kedip.. cubit kang!".. Come on! my sense of protectiveness on my eyes are far too great.. After hardworking involving Sammy's claws, we managed to put the contact. Ada-chin also went to Sammy's room with the contact. Thank God she only took awhile.

On 7:45, we departed from Mawar to Section 2 and then took U80 bus to KL Central. At the bus stop, we took some picture as a distraction from people's stare.

 The cute German (Ada-chin) and Denmark (Miss Sammy)..

Starring me as Naruto Uzumaki..

To shorten the story, we reached KL Central on 9:20. We dont have our breakfast there cause something from the previous day experience did not satisfied our need as the hungry trolls (opps,, sorry Sammy..)..We continued our journey to KLCC Convention Center and Ada-chin managed to get a boyfriend on the LRT. A guy named Corey. Me and Sammy teased Ada a lot when we lost Corey 2 hours later. 

We walked straight to the place and a bit stars-trucks when people with their costumes already there waiting for the permission to go in. 10 minutes later, the place opened after 10 seconds countdown. The stalls were the same as the previous day but, that were not the eye-catcher for the second day instead cosplayers were the major thingy. There were lots and lots of them surrounding us. Guess what? We managed to found the yesterday Sabby and this time, we took picture with him.. :D

I cannot explained more about the day cause our time surrounded around cosplayers..

 What Naruto do as she arrived KLCC? of course food! One Rotiboy please!

As we given the permission to go in, i draw the whiskers and POSING!!

 Wondering around and Denmark and German found Tsuna!! snaping snaping..

 The first person who wanna took Denmark picture.. way to go Denmark!!

 Keep my freebie in the bag.. I love freebie!

Too early! no one want to watch the stage..

 German sat down after one round of 'cuci mata'..

The awesome Mystical Mirage performing. Naruto song: fighting dreamer!

 Picture please!!

 We caught the yesterday handsome Sabby!!! look at the excited face.. His name is Martin. A professional cosplayer,, i think..

 Put a reminder for the day.. search for Sammy's signature too.. 

After strolling around some more, we cant ignore the empty stomach anymore. We got out from there and went to the food court.. Full with people and after a while, we managed to find a sit. 

 Cam-whoring again!!

How blue is my eyes?

 Naruto ate Malaysia..

 Denmark also want to eat Malaysia..

 Peace no war..

Denmark ordered lunch..

 German ordered lunch too..

After lunching, i leave Denmark and German to see my sister and have lunch with her.. Before you ask,  i'll tell you NO! i dont lunching for the second time. I dont have my lunch with German and Denmark. After KFCing with my sis, we randomly want to fashion store and people in there watched me like 'you're out of fashion'. Come on! anime is fashionable.. Then, my sis when back and i went to pray.. 

Denmark, German and I went back to Comic Fiesta and Cam-whoring again..

After a long day, we decided to go back. I cannot feel my legs anymore( hyperbole)!!!

 As Usual, we cant stop snapping.. 

 Randomly took. See how normal we are if  we were together??

 In front of KLCC Suria..

 Sammy managed to grab Moruko at LRT station. Moruko look tired..

 Look at our tired face. However, still have the energy to photo-shotting.. 

Finally, we cam-whoring all the way home.. How i feel grateful there were so few people on the KTM..

How Denmark glad she bought something.. Precious!!

 

Here come the handsome pic!! Something that we called "Denmark went back from work using public transportation.."

 OMG!! scandalous!!

 Naruto concurring the KTM!

Very beautiful Ada-chin!!

 Naruto and Denmark have a moment.. 

AGAIN!! Scandalous!!

 "inilah barisan kita, yang ikhlas berjuang, siap sedia berkorban, untuk comic fiesta!"

 Day-dreaming Naruto..

Showing off the armour ring..

 bila nak habis ni?

 Sudah! berhenti, berhenti!

Okay.. this look sad..

Final picture in the rapid bus..

Finally, its hard to type the comment for the pic you know.. To sum it all, it was really a fun day.. We satisfied with everything..